A note to the reader: I feel like oftentimes it’s easy to romanticize our lives – to look at only the positives and ignore the negatives. However, with our son, even with the “negatives” (ie, getting up in the middle of the night for feedings when an infant, poopy blowouts ;)) there has been such a joy throughout Jaxon’s life that it truly has been our pleasure as his parents to love him and serve him. I am not ignoring the negatives. There are no negatives. Maybe it’s easier because he’s such a good kid, or maybe we just truly appreciate the gift that he is to us and the “downsides” greatly diminish. Jaxon was made to be our son, and us, his parents. We fit perfectly together as a family unit and each and every day, every interaction brings a tremendous amount of joy that I can’t even begin to explain.
My one year letter to our son:
My sweet boy, Jaxon.
I can’t even start typing this without my eyes becoming moist.
You turn one on Friday… How is that even possible?
It has been a whole year that you have been in our lives and it has been so much fun that the days, weeks and months, have seriously flown by. I can’t wrap my head around the fact that you are one!!!
It was around this time last year that you were 5 days past your “due” date and it was finally starting to get to me. I had been super patient up to that point and knew that God was doing his finishing touches but I was ready to meet you! All the questions swarmed in my head…
What would you look like? What would your personality be like? Will I finally get to hold my sweet baby in my arms? Is it actually going to happen? Is this really for real?
The anticipation was building and I was starting to get impatient.
Then, the first contraction came….
15 minutes later, another one….
From then on out they never stopped and 50 hours later I was holding you in my arms amazed at this little human being that my body grew.
Your dad and I finally had our first born child. What a gift. What a miracle.
(Image by Evin Photography)
The word says…
Children are a heritage from the LORD,
offspring a reward from him.
Like arrows in the hands of a warrior
are children born in one’s youth.
Blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them.
(Psalm 127: 3-5a)
… and I personally know this to be true. Over the last year you truly have not only made our lives richer, but you have brought out the best in us.
It has been SO fun seeing you grow from a tiny helpless infant, to a baby that can grab at things, roll over, sit on his own, say our names, use sign language, crawl, and now begin to take his first steps.
You are not only a joy to me and your dad, but you brighten many, if not hundreds of lives each day. Who you are is a constant reminder of an answered prayer – when I was pregnant with you, I kept a prayer journal and I prayed to the Lord for…
“… our son’s personality and disposition. Create him to be easy going, affectionate with other people and have your joy flowing through him. Let him light up a room with his smiles and laughter.”
I have lost count how many people have told us what a smiley baby you are and that they look forward to seeing you each day online because it brightens their day. Jaxon, you are one in a million, kid, and I am so honored that God chose ME to be your mom.
(Jaxon 6 months | Image by Amy and Jordan)
I knew that I would have kids one day but honestly, wasn’t really sure if having kids was going to be that awesome… based on what others have said about their kids. And I never really got why people talked about their kids all the time.
Now, I get it.
I get it all, and those people who view their kids as a burden and complain about them are missing out on something special. You haven’t halted our lives, you enhance our lives. Sure, it’s not as easy anymore to just pick up and go, but it’s really not a big deal. Life is waaaaay more fun with you!
What I love about you….
– I love how you are the only person in the world who can wake dad up in the morning and actually have him SMILE back at you (your dad loves his morning sleep :))
– I love how when I enter a room you turn to me and crawl with your toothy, open-mouthed smile as fast as you can to get to me
– I love it when I pick you up and your little legs grip onto me and your arm goes on my shoulder
– I love how you like to explore EVERYthing and taste-test it all – the edible and the not-so-edible.
– I love your determination and your curiosity
– I love your sweetness around other kids and how you just take it all in
– I love our sweet moments together before bed when we just sit with each other, your head on my chest, your hand on my arm, and your heart in mine.
We were told that it gets even better with each new phase and season and I can’t agree more. I cannot wait to have conversations with you, actually sit down and go on adventures together in a book (right now you’re more interested in eating the pages…), and explore the world through your little eyes. If the past is any glimpse of the joys we will have with you in the future then I am strapped in and buckled, ready to enjoy the ride.
Happy one year birthday, Jaxon I truly never knew what love like this felt like until I had you. You are the best thing that has happened to me and your dad and I will always love you.