Worst clothes ever?

Yup.  I made the leap.

I bought maternity clothes.  Maternity PANTS even!

Ahhh!!

Fitting Room Fun at H&M

Fitting Room Fun at H&M

I’ve always not been very thrilled with maternity clothes. Something about seeing those pants on the hangar with tons of elastic around the band just isn’t very appealing… talk about not feeling cute! Continue reading

From the Heart of One Woman’s Struggles

When I first met her in early 2012 it was in a suite at WPPI with a few other women and I thought she was cute and totally gorgeous. 🙂  As our short meeting went on I learned she was a baby and family photographer and had a love for digging deep into the word.  Little did I know of her own personal, heartbreaking journey that she had been suffering through and wrestling with God for the last 6 years.

Some would call it fate. I would call it God’s perfect timing.  God brought along Jane Johnson to have her world collide with mine.  After our first meeting at WPPI, I had no idea the looming events that would rock my world in the following months and how God would use this remarkable woman to give me the encouragement and faith boost I would need that was the catalyst for God to begin the healing my heart so desperately needed…

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Alien or Baby?

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These last 3 weeks have been crazy fun and busy between prepping for our latest launch, visiting family, finding a place to live until our new home is completed, starting to pack up our house (bitter/sweet!), and making decisions on our new home (who knew all the little choices to be made with a home!!), BUT the most exciting thing these last few weeks has been feeling Baby Gray moving!!!!

It started out just a little pulse here and there, but the movements and bumps at times get really big (you can see the first time I captured the baby moving on Instagram).  It is the funnest thing ever because 1) it’s like confirmation that my gut isn’t getting bigger for no reason (he he ;o) and there’s actually a live, human being in there (we hope, right? Anyone birthed an alien before? ;o) and 2) Zach gets to experience our little babes moving too!!

It’s totally the funnest thing ever.

Remembering

There are many ways that people cope with grief and loss, and even how they choose to memorialize (if that’s the right word) those who have left them in this world.

Seeing that so many of you have gone through your own loss of a child,  I wanted to share with you a charm I came across last year on Etsy that is comforting to wear in remembrance of the kids we lost.

BabyCharm

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Father’s Day

It’s Fathers Day today and it’s crazy to think that Zach is a father of four!!  I always said I wouldn’t mind having a bigger family and I guess I’ve got it.  It’s going to be one big party when we all get to heaven 🙂  It’s weird to think that this time next year we’ll be celebrating with a 7 month old!

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Enjoy the latest baby bump photo of me and our little man taken at 20 weeks.

Happy Father’s Day to all of the fathers out there and the fathers to be!

It’s a….

We had our anomaly and gender scan yesterday! I have to admit, Zach and I were both caught off guard!

We are having a boy!

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(image by the amazing and lovely, Evin of Evin Photography 🙂

When the technician said our child was most definitely male, the first thing out of my mouth was, “Are you sure?” lol.

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Anomaly & Gender Scan Today

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Today we go in for an ultra sound and it’s the big, exciting and greatly anticipated appointment where we find out the gender of our precious baby! We are so pumped and excited to know that we FINALLY get to know if we are having a little boy or a little girl. Eeeek!!!

Though today is exciting, there’s a small part of me that’s trying not to worry. See, not only do they do a gender scan but it’s at this ultra sound that they do what they call an anomaly scan. Continue reading

Mother’s Day Thoughts

A year ago on this day, where millions of women were celebrating what they had, I was mourning what I had lost.

Up until a year ago I had always seen Mother’s Day as a happy day, but now realize how painful it can be for some. For those of you out there where this day brings sadness, I pray the Lord turns your mourning into dancing and turns your sorrow into joy.

I know there will be hard times ahead with parenthood and life, but today I am focusing on what He, my heavenly father, has given me. I am so thankful that I get to celebrate Mother’s Day today knowing that we are on track to have our first born child here on earth who gets to call me “mom.” So crazy, so surreal.

(My first Mother's Day cards...)

(My first Mother’s Day cards…)

The message at church today was really interesting and not what I expected it to be.

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